Heather in the Summertime.

Summer is a magical time for me. Or, atleast it used to be. For as long as I can remember, the warm months have always been filled with sea-soaked days, and saltwater nights. Family, friends, the people we gossiped about... all gathered together. Like a ritual.

I seemed to always garner my strength and inspiration during those long, wonderful summers. You know, kind of a recovery period from the previous year. I learned a lot about myself, and grew exponentially everytime that glorious season passed.

Now- well, I'm an adult. That was my youth. Most of the people I spent so many special moments with are gone, moved on, or dead. My immediate family and I are estranged. It's just... it's not the same. I feel like I haven't progressed since that last summer; the summer before Grandpa died.

It was so sudden, his death. It was near Thanksgiving, so close, that no one celebrated that year. It would be an understatement to say that he was the star of the family, and it almost literally shattered my family when he passed. I can't say I went unnaffected. It was, and has since been, what substantially weakened me.

At his funeral, my Mother and Aunts hushed me by saying "Heather, quiet down. You need to be strong for the rest of the family. You'll just upset your Grandmother with all that crying." I cried harder. It was like any "strength" I had left my body the instant he died.

Since then, my progress and growth as an adult have stagnated, and I have grown accustomed to being caught in a depressive loop. What do you do when your entire life has shifted into something unrecognizable? Nothing, apparently. Atleast for me, that has been the case.

I find myself just waiting for something good to happen again, and it has been years.

It is what it is.

As the title suggests, the purpose of this blog is: prose. I intend to use this as a resource for getting back into writing.

A disclaimer: I haven't formally written in years, and I'd like to change that. This blog is for fiction, non-fiction, and the in-between. I hope this eventually becomes a culmination of my own ideas along with ideas from my readers. So please, feel free to submit ideas/topics you would like me to write about- I welcome the challenge.